.Sunday, February 13, 2011 ' 5:02:00 PM Y
Hello people. My life has been very different so far. S T R E S S with 5 things. Haiz...Firstly about family. The ones that i loved. The ones that have been with me for 15 years. I couldn't stop myself for crying like almost every night since this one incident happen to us. I love them so much. I couldn't bear to see them fight just about me. Haiz...
Secondly about my studies. I've not been paying attention in class. Especially during Maths lesson. All i do is just talk or sleep. Fucked up or what?! I regret by not paying attention in class. Starting from tomorrow, i'll do less talking and more studying. I seriously want to have a good results for my N Level. I wanna make my family proud of me. Really really proud i mean. I hope i can do it. Haiz...
Thirdly about me and dearest Nur Zakirah Binte Mesron. I've just ended our relationship due to my attitude. I'm sorry for all this while Ira. I know i'm not a good friend of yours. I couldn't help you that much with some of your problems. Sorry for not being a great listening ears for you. Sorry for not lending my shoulders for you to cry on. Sorry for everything. People do change right? Haiz... I would really wanna continue this friendship but i just can't with this attitude of mine. I'm sorry. I love you so much. Find me if you REALLY need me. Take care of yourself.
Fourth about Muhammad Rifdi Bin Hanaffiah. I've told him that i can't accept him in my life. I've told him that i wanna finish my N Level then i'm ready for those long lasting/real relationship. He do understand me but he is just having too much high hopes in himself for me. I cannot do anything but just tell him that i can't accept him. This is the second time i rejected him. I'm sorry Didi. I love you but as a friend only. Thanks for all those sweet moments when you're with me. Thanks for all those hugs and stuff. You are the best guy i happen to contact with. I could see that you would want to win my heart no matter what but it's hard. I love you so much. Take care of yourself.
Lastly about Muhammad Izhhar Bin Mesron. My love for you have not fade away. Not a little bit my dear. I don't know why. Haiz... Trust me, this time it's like really hard for me to move on after we broke up. But i know we could move on together. Let's do this together aite? I miss you so much. Take care of yourself when i'm not around with you. Lastly remember this, i love you no matter what happen aite?
Till here then. Byeeeeeee ♥
♥gergerl