Hello people. My life has been very different so far. S T R E S S with 5 things. Haiz...

Firstly about family. The ones that i loved. The ones that have been with me for 15 years. I couldn't stop myself for crying like almost every night since this one incident happen to us. I love them so much. I couldn't bear to see them fight just about me. Haiz...

Secondly about my studies. I've not been paying attention in class. Especially during Maths lesson. All i do is just talk or sleep. Fucked up or what?! I regret by not paying attention in class. Starting from tomorrow, i'll do less talking and more studying. I seriously want to have a good results for my N Level. I wanna make my family proud of me. Really really proud i mean. I hope i can do it. Haiz...

Thirdly about me and dearest Nur Zakirah Binte Mesron. I've just ended our relationship due to my attitude. I'm sorry for all this while Ira. I know i'm not a good friend of yours. I couldn't help you that much with some of your problems. Sorry for not being a great listening ears for you. Sorry for not lending my shoulders for you to cry on. Sorry for everything. People do change right? Haiz... I would really wanna continue this friendship but i just can't with this attitude of mine. I'm sorry. I love you so much. Find me if you REALLY need me. Take care of yourself.

Fourth about Muhammad Rifdi Bin Hanaffiah. I've told him that i can't accept him in my life. I've told him that i wanna finish my N Level then i'm ready for those long lasting/real relationship. He do understand me but he is just having too much high hopes in himself for me. I cannot do anything but just tell him that i can't accept him. This is the second time i rejected him. I'm sorry Didi. I love you but as a friend only. Thanks for all those sweet moments when you're with me. Thanks for all those hugs and stuff. You are the best guy i happen to contact with. I could see that you would want to win my heart no matter what but it's hard. I love you so much. Take care of yourself.

Lastly about Muhammad Izhhar Bin Mesron. My love for you have not fade away. Not a little bit my dear. I don't know why. Haiz... Trust me, this time it's like really hard for me to move on after we broke up. But i know we could move on together. Let's do this together aite? I miss you so much. Take care of yourself when i'm not around with you. Lastly remember this, i love you no matter what happen aite?

Till here then. Byeeeeeee ♥

Hello people. Sorry the dead blog of mine. Been to busy with school, friends and stuff. I'm so so so sorry. My life have been different, me myself can feel the different. I changed, yes i really changed. Some people could see but some people could not see it. I know that i'm not the GERGERL some of you know in real life right now.

Firstly, i've been thinking about my ex recently. I don't know why? Maybe because i miss him so much? Or maybe i still love him deeply? I myself don't know. But to tell the truth i still love him. I do miss him. I do think about him sometimes. I hope he know how i feel. But frankly speaking my dear ex, i think you've changed. I don't know why but you seems different when i saw you sometimes. Haiz... It's your life, it ain't mine. You gotta live your own life just the way you like it aite? Take care of yourself. Don't fight with mama and abah anymore. I love your mum just like i love my mum, trust me. I hope you're reading this blog of mine aite. Don't create problem and stuff. I know you're a good boy. Haha. Take care.

Secondly, about this friend of mine, a guy. He is deeply in love with me. He is already having high hopes on me. GOSH! I hate people having high hopes on me cause they will surely be hurt in the end. FML! But he is that kind of guy i want. He can make me laugh 24/7, he can make me smile no matter what, he always make jokes, he know how to cheer me up, he know how to console a girl, we have the same bunch of friends that we can clique with and i always feel safe when he's with me. When he lean on my shoulder, i can feel the love going through us but i just can't accept him right now. I wanna focus on my N Level. I've promised my sister, myself, my friends and also my ex that i wanna finish my N Level first then get into a real relationship. And that is a promise and i don't want to break that promise.

Thirdly, family. They want me to change my behaviour by not going out that often, by not lepak that often and by not going home late that often. I'll try to change my dear family cause i love you ; baba, mama, kak min and kak nur. Much loved ♥ HUGS!

MY CNY HOLIDAY WAS SPENT WITH FUN PEOPLE THAT IS MY BIG FAMILY ! WOOOO ~

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