.Thursday, February 10, 2011 ' 7:36:00 PM Y
Hello people. Sorry the dead blog of mine. Been to busy with school, friends and stuff. I'm so so so sorry. My life have been different, me myself can feel the different. I changed, yes i really changed. Some people could see but some people could not see it. I know that i'm not the GERGERL some of you know in real life right now.
Firstly, i've been thinking about my ex recently. I don't know why? Maybe because i miss him so much? Or maybe i still love him deeply? I myself don't know. But to tell the truth i still love him. I do miss him. I do think about him sometimes. I hope he know how i feel. But frankly speaking my dear ex, i think you've changed. I don't know why but you seems different when i saw you sometimes. Haiz... It's your life, it ain't mine. You gotta live your own life just the way you like it aite? Take care of yourself. Don't fight with mama and abah anymore. I love your mum just like i love my mum, trust me. I hope you're reading this blog of mine aite. Don't create problem and stuff. I know you're a good boy. Haha. Take care.
Secondly, about this friend of mine, a guy. He is deeply in love with me. He is already having high hopes on me. GOSH! I hate people having high hopes on me cause they will surely be hurt in the end. FML! But he is that kind of guy i want. He can make me laugh 24/7, he can make me smile no matter what, he always make jokes, he know how to cheer me up, he know how to console a girl, we have the same bunch of friends that we can clique with and i always feel safe when he's with me. When he lean on my shoulder, i can feel the love going through us but i just can't accept him right now. I wanna focus on my N Level. I've promised my sister, myself, my friends and also my ex that i wanna finish my N Level first then get into a real relationship. And that is a promise and i don't want to break that promise.
Thirdly, family. They want me to change my behaviour by not going out that often, by not lepak that often and by not going home late that often. I'll try to change my dear family cause i love you ; baba, mama, kak min and kak nur. Much loved ♥ HUGS!
♥gergerl